It’s That Time

Dear Everyone,

Unfortunately the time has come for me to write my this blog. Last week, on Tuesday, I went into the hospital to get an MRI on my brain. For about seven weeks things were becoming more and more difficult for me and Jon was worried. We met with our neurologist the week prior and he suggested that it would be a good idea to get the MRI and Dr. M agreed. I wasn’t really in a rush to get it but over that weekend I started to get confused easily and was starting to have some pain. So, Jon asked the doctors if they could hurry up the MRI and he scheduled it for Wednesday. On Tuesday, the clinic called and said they had a bed for me today and to get your butt here. So, we packed up and made our way to the hospital. We checked in and later that day we got our scan, but to get it they had to put me to sleep otherwise my tremors would ruin the image. At 7:30 in the evening I arrived back to my room happier than I’ve been in a long time. Jon told me that I ripped out my IV proclaiming that I’m done with the hospital, while blood squirted out of the wound. Julio, the fireman, was waiting for me outside the door, and there was a bunch of kids in the bathroom playing. Whatever they gave me was GREAT!!! I don’t know if Jon enjoyed it much, but at least I made him laugh.

On Wednesday, Dr. M came to see us in the late morning and told us the bad news. The cancer is growing and there are no more medical options available to me. At this point the goal is to make me as comfortable as possible. So, I got some new pills to help with my pain and they work most of the time. I still get really bad spells of pain but for most of the day I’m doing okay. I have problem using the toilet now so I have to be on a special diet that sucks. I hate being told I can’t eat something.

But what I hate the most is doing this, telling my friends that I’m not going to live much longer. It breaks my heart having to tell you and hearing the pain in your voices as you search for the words in response. But take comfort, I’m getting ready for the end. I’ve fought for almost six years and made the most out of my time. Jon and I ventured all over the world, I spent time with my family, and lived as best I could. I regret not having children with Jon and, frankly, not seeing everything this world has to offer. I wish I could see all my friends have their babies, especially my dearest friend Randi. I wish I could host one more party with all of my friends. I wish I could cook another meal with my mother, but alas, there is no more time for these things. All the time I have now is to say good-bye and wish you all happiness and peace. May you all spend your life as I did exploring the world, seeking new experiences, helping others and eating great food and drinking even better wine.

So the only thing I have left to say to you know is GOOD-BYE AND I LOVE YOU!

 

 

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  1. Britt

    My beautiful friend, you have taught me how to live and given so much love every step along the way. You are forever in our hearts. We love you.

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  2. hillcountrydaytrips

    Timmsy, I keep saying I love you and wishing you peace. But I also want to say I realize you are realistically not full of peace. I’m so sorry for all the things you won’t get to do, all the love you won’t be able to keep giving. If it means anything to you at all, I think of you all the time — and you remind me to be grateful for my health and all I can do, and to not waste time, and to travel much more than I’ve been doing, and to get over it when I’m feeling grumpy because life is beautiful and I have nothing to be grumpy about. Thank you for your honesty all along the way. I will miss you more than words can express. -StanB

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  3. Ginger Ash

    Thank you for enriching my life since you were nine years old. Through the blog, I met the love of your life and read about the happiest and saddest of days in this difficult journey for you and your family.
    May God hold you in the palm of His hand.
    Love, Mrs. Ash

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  4. Janet

    Eli, I’m praying for you and Jon everyday! I feel so blessed that I got to spend time with you at the wedding and reception! You are one of the strongest person that I know. I will cherish life so much more by knowing you! Love always Janet

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  5. Geneal Fendrick

    Bless you, dear Eli…you have fought long and hard and I was hoping for a different outcome for you and Jon. I wish you comfort and love today and always.

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  6. Jane Chesney

    You have fought the good fight and touched many lives over the course of your own life. Truly, you have been an inspiration for all.

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  7. Denise Sandy-Sanchez

    As educators, we never know the moment or series of moments that make a difference. Miquela was positively impacted by your relationship with her, in Dalian. As parents we want the best for our children, we want people to see them with the lens of greatest potential, and want them to be supported and guided with honesty and integrity. You modeled this to our daughter and I am sure to so many other students. Your life was designed with purpose and I am blessed to say your life has demonstrated the ability of a person who lives each day with kindness, makes time for others, takes on adventures and lives with joy, and supports those who are in need as well as celebrates those who are experiencing success. I believe your life has blessed many, because I experienced it first hand. Thank you for being gentle, strong, caring, firm, and a model for experiencing greatness and sharing greatness. You and your family are in my prayers. I pray for peace, I pray for strength, and I pray that you focus on everything you accomplished, because your actions and your love have allowed others to experience a fuller life. Many blessings to you and thank you, thank you for teaching Miquela more than curriculum, but for also holding her hand and her heart.

    Denise Sandy-Sánchez

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  8. Carlos Soriano

    All the love and peace for you and Jon in these moments. I lost my brother to cancer, and my view on life changed. I focus now on what is really important, family and helping others when possible. Take all your experiences and love given and recieived, and cherish every moment. Its not easy with the pain… if I could take it away, belive menI would. I am sorry you have to endure it, but take comfort in your husband, and the people around you who will give you love until you go in peace. God bless you. Carlos

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  9. April

    There are no words, Eli. Thank you for sharing your journey with us – I’ve learned so much . . . And I’ve seen pictures of many places I now want to visit in your photos! Sending you love and thanks. Y un abrazote, mi amiga.

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